今年的Window team在四月才正式建立起来，不少人在第一次听说我们三个的组合的时候都很欣喜，期待今年会碰出怎么样的火花。事实看来，做Window Curator是不容易的。这么小的一个地方，大gallery需要做的事情，我们其实也得都做。时常会因为自己的能力、时间、精力能做到的事，能够帮助到艺术家的地方而焦虑，有很多疑惑的地方不知道要向谁讲。

两眼一摸黑就已经做完两个展览了。在最开始的时候我就想写东西，我知道文字是对我来说很好的表达工具。我很喜欢把脑中划过的思绪，一点点落在纸上，把清晰的感叹，模糊成语言，再慢慢敲打精致的过程。在我还有热情，还有不少闲暇时间，我想要把想到的事情或者不解的疑虑摊开来讲讲。既然这个平台相对宽松，我们相对有掌握，那就得要做一些也让自己感到兴奋的事情。

那什么是策展反思？我其实也没有办法定义，但我知道在过去的两个展览中有很多一直陪伴我的思绪，原则，反思，搞砸的事情和感悟。每一个都是让我拿更多的角度来理解在发生什么，指导着接下来可以怎么做。所以这些话其实并不代表Window立场，而是我自己的小九九。写的内容也不像学术论文那样可以经得起推敲，是一些自我反思和自我感动的话罢了。

其实我也是故意没有去揣测行业标准是什么，一是很多艺术评论让我读起来觉得很吃力，看不懂；二是我想，能够鼓励自己放下心，按照我的心意真诚地来就是最好的实践，超出行业烂七八糟的标准和期待，是批判最好的方式。

2024年5月28日

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The 2024 Window team was only established in April this year. Lots of people were excited to see what kind of energy the three of us could bring to the table. It turns out that being a Window Curator is not easy. In such a tiny space, we actually have to do everything (not everything) that a large gallery needs to do. Often, I feel anxious about my capacity, the time and energy I can devote, and how much we can help artists with our connections. There are many doubts that I don't know who to talk to. 

In the blink of an eye, we have put up two exhibitions, My Single-Bed Room by Oliver Chūn Xú, and Mum-choong by MJ Lee. I always wanted to write, part of the reason why I applied to be a Window Curator is that I want to have a place to write. I love the process of capturing fleeting thoughts, putting them down on paper, turning clear exclamations into language, and then slowly refining them. While there is still passion and free time on my hands,  I want to talk about the things I think of or the doubts I have. Since we are already doing the mahi for free, I should ~at least~ do something that excites me.

What is a curatorial reflection? I can’t give out a definition and I’m not sure of the standard of the industry.  But I know there are some thoughts, principles, reflections, things that I messed up and insights that accompanied me in actualising the past two exhibitions. So these writings do not represent Window but merely are my own little ponderings. It is not like an academic paper that can withstand scrutiny; it’s just some self-reflection and words that makes me happy.

To be more honest, I deliberately did not try hard to figure out what the industry standard is. First of all, a lot of art criticism is ~really~ difficult for me to read and understand; and second, I think encouraging myself to act sincerely according to my own genuine mind is the best practice. Doing things that are out of whatever the industry does to our imaginations, will be the best critique.

28 May 2024